If you really knew me.

If You really knew me, you would know that I never cry in front of others unless something really, really hard is happening in my life. You'd know that when I get upset about something I don't eat or drink anything. Last time that happened I didn't eat for almost two days straight. If you really knew me, you'd know that I cry in fictional stories and not movies that actually happened...like 17 miracles. You'd know that I would rather be the dumbest person in the world and be very talented instead of the opposite.You'd know that I hate any form of physical or emotional pain.
If you really knew me, you would know that I always feel alone in the world. When I try to speak to you, you would know that I honestly have nobody to talk to that wants to listen.
If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm the girl in the song "Paradise" by Coldplay. You'd know that my Dad lost his job on January 6, 2012 when he only had it for 4 months and hasn't had a permanent job in 4 or 5 years.

You'd know that I wish others would look at me as somethings else other than an artist. Is that all I am? Is there anything else about me that is special?

If you really knew me, you'd know that any note, card or  invitation I receive from you I've kept so that I will always remember that happy memory and so I will never forget you.
You would know that I have around $200 saved in cash that's for my future trip to Japan.

You'd know that I truly...don't know who I am...and where to start...or go.