If You really knew me, you would know that I never cry in front of others unless something really, really hard is happening in my life. You'd know that when I get upset about something I don't eat or drink anything. Last time that happened I didn't eat for almost two days straight. If you really knew me, you'd know that I cry in fictional stories and not movies that actually happened...like 17 miracles. You'd know that I would rather be the dumbest person in the world and be very talented instead of the opposite.You'd know that I hate any form of physical or emotional pain.
If you really knew me, you would know that I always feel alone in the world. When I try to speak to you, you would know that I honestly have nobody to talk to that wants to listen.
If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm the girl in the song "Paradise" by Coldplay. You'd know that my Dad lost his job on January 6, 2012 when he only had it for 4 months and hasn't had a permanent job in 4 or 5 years.
You'd know that I wish others would look at me as somethings else other than an artist. Is that all I am? Is there anything else about me that is special?
If you really knew me, you'd know that any note, card or invitation I receive from you I've kept so that I will always remember that happy memory and so I will never forget you.
You would know that I have around $200 saved in cash that's for my future trip to Japan.
You'd know that I truly...don't know who I am...and where to start...or go.
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Jealousy
Sorry to say, but I couldn't find a poem that makes me jealous. But I found one that I really like and that I can relate to and understand its meaning.
The poem is "The Poet", By: Tom Wayman. Link: http://www.loc.gov/poetry/180/015.html
I really liked how nobody can relate or understand a poet unless they are some kind of poet themselves. I love the line:
" May speak much but makes little sense."
Why do I like it? Because it's so true about being an artist like myself. Fact: There isn't a huge difference between an artist that paints and an artist that writes. They just interpret the same thing in different ways. Everyone is an artist in some way. Just some are more into their own world of creation than others. But we can all relate to each other even though we are different.
The poem is "The Poet", By: Tom Wayman. Link: http://www.loc.gov/poetry/180/015.html
I really liked how nobody can relate or understand a poet unless they are some kind of poet themselves. I love the line:
" May speak much but makes little sense."
Why do I like it? Because it's so true about being an artist like myself. Fact: There isn't a huge difference between an artist that paints and an artist that writes. They just interpret the same thing in different ways. Everyone is an artist in some way. Just some are more into their own world of creation than others. But we can all relate to each other even though we are different.
Gandhi
When will we own ourselves completely? My dearest, loved one.
I want to keep fighting this battle. But are there any breaks between this thick sand in this hot desert? When will the sun set and the sand settle? I keep forgetting that this battle will never end and how the sand will never stop fogging up my already cluttered vision. No matter what, I will cross this desert and reach you again. Then, our final battle will begin. But are you there waiting for me across this endless desert? I hope that this won't be our last meeting. This is a battle for your heart, after all. Soon, the sun will set and you will be gone, or be mine. And tonight is not the last time I see the light.
I want to keep fighting this battle. But are there any breaks between this thick sand in this hot desert? When will the sun set and the sand settle? I keep forgetting that this battle will never end and how the sand will never stop fogging up my already cluttered vision. No matter what, I will cross this desert and reach you again. Then, our final battle will begin. But are you there waiting for me across this endless desert? I hope that this won't be our last meeting. This is a battle for your heart, after all. Soon, the sun will set and you will be gone, or be mine. And tonight is not the last time I see the light.
My Journey
Ordinary Word:
Van goes to school everyday, chats with people he knows. Then he goes home to a home he doesn't even want to go home to. He wonders when life will eventually start to change for better...or worse.
Call to adventure:
It's Van's senior year in High School, and he has a lot of decisions to make such as his future. What is he going to be? What does he live for? Everyone else seems to know what they want for their future. He needs to make his own right now.
Refusal of the call:
Van doesn't want to even think about his future. If he had the choice, he would stay at home and draw all day. That was his passion. His only passion.
Meeting with the mentor:
He prays to God. Asking him for guidance to know what he should do. God then gives him comfort and puts Trisha in his life. She helps him by telling him small simple things, which gives him courage.
Crossing the Threshold:
Van starts taking risks. He gets out of his bubble. Van applies for colleges, scholarships, and signs up to take the ACT..again.
Tests, Allies, Enemies:
Teachers start pushing Van too hard with school work and tests. He studied really hard for the ACT, which made everything in his life harder. Friends seemed to become distant. They seemed to be living their own lives, while van felt like he was alone. 'So this is how it has to be huh?" Van often thought to himself.
Approach:
Trisha notices Van struggling in his life. She helps him study for the ACT and takes him on a few dates to cheer him up. She gives him courage with advice and listening ears. Van then steps back a minute and realizes that there are others there to help him, but that's only if he lets them in.
Ordeal:
Van decides to take the AP Art test, even though his life in in crises. It took countless hours of work, but Van finally ends up submitting the portfolio. He then continues to work toward scholarships and other things.
Reward:
Van gets his AP Art credit, and receives a few scholarships.
The Road Back:
He graduates from High School, and heads back to reality. He knows know that he's a better person from his experiences.
Resurrection:
Van tells Trisha how he feels about her. She tells him that she likes someone else, but that she wants to stay friends with him. Van knew that was the outcome, but was more heartbroken than he thought. But because of his experiences, he knew that he could get through it and not to give up on her just yet.
Return with Elixir:
He realizes that he was called to be an art teacher. Not just an ordinary one, but an uplifting art teacher who is willing to help others with their struggles.
Archetypes:
Hero: Van
Mentor: Trisha
Threshold Guardian: Teachers
Herald: Parents
Shapeshifter: Van, and students
Shadow: The ACT, AP Art test, other tests.
Trickster: Teachers.
Van goes to school everyday, chats with people he knows. Then he goes home to a home he doesn't even want to go home to. He wonders when life will eventually start to change for better...or worse.
Call to adventure:
It's Van's senior year in High School, and he has a lot of decisions to make such as his future. What is he going to be? What does he live for? Everyone else seems to know what they want for their future. He needs to make his own right now.
Refusal of the call:
Van doesn't want to even think about his future. If he had the choice, he would stay at home and draw all day. That was his passion. His only passion.
Meeting with the mentor:
He prays to God. Asking him for guidance to know what he should do. God then gives him comfort and puts Trisha in his life. She helps him by telling him small simple things, which gives him courage.
Crossing the Threshold:
Van starts taking risks. He gets out of his bubble. Van applies for colleges, scholarships, and signs up to take the ACT..again.
Tests, Allies, Enemies:
Teachers start pushing Van too hard with school work and tests. He studied really hard for the ACT, which made everything in his life harder. Friends seemed to become distant. They seemed to be living their own lives, while van felt like he was alone. 'So this is how it has to be huh?" Van often thought to himself.
Approach:
Trisha notices Van struggling in his life. She helps him study for the ACT and takes him on a few dates to cheer him up. She gives him courage with advice and listening ears. Van then steps back a minute and realizes that there are others there to help him, but that's only if he lets them in.
Ordeal:
Van decides to take the AP Art test, even though his life in in crises. It took countless hours of work, but Van finally ends up submitting the portfolio. He then continues to work toward scholarships and other things.
Reward:
Van gets his AP Art credit, and receives a few scholarships.
The Road Back:
He graduates from High School, and heads back to reality. He knows know that he's a better person from his experiences.
Resurrection:
Van tells Trisha how he feels about her. She tells him that she likes someone else, but that she wants to stay friends with him. Van knew that was the outcome, but was more heartbroken than he thought. But because of his experiences, he knew that he could get through it and not to give up on her just yet.
Return with Elixir:
He realizes that he was called to be an art teacher. Not just an ordinary one, but an uplifting art teacher who is willing to help others with their struggles.
Archetypes:
Hero: Van
Mentor: Trisha
Threshold Guardian: Teachers
Herald: Parents
Shapeshifter: Van, and students
Shadow: The ACT, AP Art test, other tests.
Trickster: Teachers.
My Story
Plot:
Van is secretly an artist. The world knows it, but Van doesn't know..yet. He needs to discover it for himself. He needs to find out why he's an artist and what he lives for.
Characters:
Van is secretly an artist. The world knows it, but Van doesn't know..yet. He needs to discover it for himself. He needs to find out why he's an artist and what he lives for.
Characters:
- Main character- Van
- The supporters- Van's parents
- Trisha- The person Van is in love with. She always makes his day by doing what she does best. She enjoys listening and is just happy with life even though she has her struggles.
Theme:
You have the choice to be who you want to be, not what others assume your going to be. It's your life, your dreams.
Setting:
2012. The year the world changes around Van. The story takes place in a lonely high school in Utah County, and beyond.
Monday, December 12, 2011
Tell Someone.
This is for the selfish, the wise and the stupid.
This is for those books that have hardly been read but are a legendary. For the writers, the dreamers and the lovers.
Tell someone
This is for the ones in love with someone special.
Everyone has one of these once and a while.
Tell someone.
This is for the people who struggle with Pornography, drugs, and alcohol who need help.
Tell someone.
This is for the happy, sad and lonely people. For the dried out paint, old paintbrushes, broken guitar strings, broken pencils and out of ink pens.
This is for the worn out sneakers, the broken glass on my cold driveway, that rusty old car, the melting sun, the frozen moon, and the empty water bottle.
Tell someone.
This is for that old record player, the classy Beatles albums, and the new tape players. This is for you.
Tell someone.
This is for those books that have hardly been read but are a legendary. For the writers, the dreamers and the lovers.
Tell someone
This is for the ones in love with someone special.
Everyone has one of these once and a while.
Tell someone.
This is for the people who struggle with Pornography, drugs, and alcohol who need help.
Tell someone.
This is for the happy, sad and lonely people. For the dried out paint, old paintbrushes, broken guitar strings, broken pencils and out of ink pens.
This is for the worn out sneakers, the broken glass on my cold driveway, that rusty old car, the melting sun, the frozen moon, and the empty water bottle.
Tell someone.
This is for that old record player, the classy Beatles albums, and the new tape players. This is for you.
Tell someone.
Monday, November 21, 2011
Film Analysis
Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children
Ordinary World: It's been two years since the meteor fell and nearly destroyed the planet. Cloud lives an ordinary life filled with regrets of killing two of his best friends: Aerith and Zack. He lives in a church, not wanting to help anyone because he believes he can't save anyone anymore.
Call to Adventure: Cloud goes and talks with Rufus, who is the current president of Shinra Company and is summoned to find the cause of "Geostigma", a mysterious disease that is threatening the cities population. The disease appeared after the meteor fell and after Sephiroths death. And now there have been sightings that he is still alive. Kadaj's gang has suddenly appeared hoping to find their "Mother".
Refusal of the Call: Cloud refuses to work with Rufus knowing that he can't save anyone and that more people will die because of him being a first class Soldier. Meeting with the Mentor: Cloud meets with Tifa, his childhood friend. She tells him to move on and accept the way things are. He also crosses over into the lifestream and gets to talk with Aerith, asking her for forgiveness. He then talks with Vincent, and asks him if sins can be forgiven. Vincent says "I've never tried it." and then Clouds burdens feel lighter knowing that he can try it.
Crossing the Threshold: Cloud teams up with his companions to take down Kadaj and his gang. There are many scenes with that, such as the race of the highway.
Approach: Cloud talks with Marlene, Aerith's little sister whom Cloud and Tifa were talking care of along with the orphan named Denzel who has Geostigma. Marlene tells Cloud not to give up and that people are always there looking after him no matter what. Cloud realizes that it's his turn to protect the people he loves.
Ordeal: Cloud faces his enemy: Sephiroth. It was an epic battle between good and evil. Cloud comes near death, but his strength is returned because his best friend Zack talks to him from the other side, telling him to always have pride for being a first class Soldier. Reward: Cloud has gained a greater understanding how important life is and that there is nothing that he does not treasure. Also, Rain that falls from the sky became the cure for Geostigma. Cloud gets healed as well as the other children.
The Road Back: He goes back home to his friends who have loved him and missed the old Cloud.
Ressurrection: Kadaj's gang shoots Cloud as soon as Sephiroth is dead. Cloud runs to kill them, but then an explosion occurs catching Cloud in the middle of it. Aerith and Zack take Could from the lifestream back to the ordinary world. Return with Elixir: The church is full of water that cures the Geostigma and Cloud heals Denzel and other children.
Archtype Analysis
Hero: Cloud Strife
Mentor: Tifa, Aerith, Zack, Marlene, and Denzel.
Threshold Guardian: Kadaj and his gang.
Herald: Rufus Shinra.
Shapeshifter: Kadaja and his gang
Shadow: Sephiroth
Trickster: Rufus Shinra, Reno and Rude.
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